I’m wandering through Barbara Brown Taylor’s “Leaving Church…A Memoir of Faith” and find the following passages relevant to my current questions about church…
All these years later, the way many of us are doing church is broken and we know it, even if we do not know what to do about it….We follow a Lord who challenged the religious and political institutions of his time while we fund and defend our own. We speak and sing of divine transformation while we do everything in our power to maintain our equilibrium. If redeeming things continue to happen to us in spite of these deep contradictions in our life together then I think that is because God is faithful even when we are not.
I wonder why we live through this pain and refuse to consult the healer? Why do we keep making the same mistakes? Is it because we know the truth of this last sentence? We say it all the time that we are blessed more than we can ever see reason, and yet we fail to realize the possibilities of what could be if we were more faithful to what Christ envisions for his church.Taylor then quotes the novelist Reynolds Price who is stricken with cancer, “When you undergo huge traumas in middle life, everybody is in league with us to deny that the old life is ended. Everybody is trying to patch us up and get us back to who we were, when in fact what we need to be told is…’You’re dead. Who are you going to be tomorrow?'”
This is the gospel truth, as true of the church as of her members. All the church ever needed to rise from the dead is memory, bread, wine, and Holy Spirit—that, and care for the world that is at least equal to her care for her own preservation. Where church growth has eclipsed church depth, it is possible to hear very little about the world except as a rival for the human resources needed by the church for her own survival.
This is the trap that easily snares us…the need to accomplish something that is tangential to what we perceive the church should be. It’s about buildings instead of neighborhoods. It’s about numbers instead of relationships. It’s about agendas instead of listening to the other. Why do we keep making the same mistakes? More importantly, what do we do about it? Or, should I ask how do we begin to rely on God instead of ourselves so that we may begin to help our neighbors to embark on the journey with us? Do we have to be healed before we step outside the door, or is it the encounters with those outside the church that will begin to heal us?I’ll finish Taylor’s thoughts on new life for the church in the next post.